My name is Hannah Elizabeth Moeckl, I am a 25 year old soon-to-be mother of two, wife, sister, daughter, friend & nurse (who is currently not working). I am extremely thankful for my life, family & friends. I know I am blessed beyond what I could ever deserve and most importantly I have been redeemed by my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. All those things make me feel like my life is perfect in many ways, but as far as having it all together and actually being the ideal image that I have of myself, let me assure you, I am FAR from perfect. My life is far from perfect.
The truth is that my house is usually somewhat messy and disorganized, there is almost always laundry that needs to be done and dishes waiting on the counter or in the sink to be cleaned.
There is always a closet, counter or cabinet that needs to be more organized.
There are usually crumbs on the counter and crumbs, dirt and hair on the floors. I sweep - sometimes, and I vacuum when we are having people over. I haven't mopped the floors since we moved in, in October (my sweet, very helpful husband may have mopped a couple times - thank the Lord for him)!! I scrub the bathrooms when they get really/noticeably dirty or when we are expecting company.
So, my sweet friends, sisters, brothers, fellow mothers, all that to say that I DO NOT have it all together. I fail to stick to resolutions or make the "right" choices over and over again. Sometimes I get really down about it, lots of times I like to hide all those imperfections. I am guilty of putting on masks and trying to act like I have it all together or pretending that my failures really don't bother me. Sometimes, I feel completely unworthy and downright shameful. At times, I truly think I have nothing to offer.
BUT, my wonderful, beautiful, amazing Savior keeps reminding me that His GRACE is sufficient for me, and His power is made perfect in my weaknesses.
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." II Corinthians 12:9
For this reason, I rejoice in my weaknesses and failures. It reminds me of how desperately I need a Savior, and it allows the Lord to show Himself strong in me/my life.
This exposure of myself is not to make any one feel better or worse about themselves, because, after all, we are not to compare ourselves among ourselves.
"For we dare not class ourselves or compare ourselves with those who commend themselves. But they, measuring themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise." II Corinthians 10:12
Rather, this is an attempt at being raw and honest; An endeavor to point myself and hopefully others to Jesus. To remind us that our worth does not come from what we do, who we are, or how we look. That we are not better or worse for failing to live up to standards that we or others have set. That our life is not more or less perfect based on how clean our house is, how well behaved our children are, or how put together we look. We have value and worth because Jesus says we do, and our life can at least have perfect moments because of the blessings that Jesus has so graciously bestowed upon us.
I want the Lord to continue to challenge me and help me to grow in many areas. And, Lord willing, one day, I will be better and more disciplined in certain areas, but it will only be by His grace and through His strength. In the mean time (throughout the process), I want to be real and honest, because I have discovered that there is so much value in offering yourself JUST AS YOU ARE (today) - to others and to Jesus.