Saturday, November 10, 2012

HE SPEAKS...through sunshine and quiet moments

Sitting on the stairs of our new, still empty, house. It is early morning and sunshine is pouring in through the windows. All is quiet and still in the house. I am muttering a silent prayer as I meditate on some of the verses I read just moments ago. All of a sudden I feel HIS presence wash over me in an incredibly gentle and powerful way. HE speaks softly to my heart, “I am here, I am always here; rest in that.” Tears stream down my face and in that moment I feel completely whole and totally safe. It is amazing what a simple touch from HIM can do to my entire being. HE reminds me that HE speaks; today through early morning sunshine and a still, quiet moment.

I feel so thankful.  I remind myself how essential it is to take a moment to be quiet and still, to take even just a second to seek HIM. HE is always here and HE will meet us. HE speaks to our hearts and refreshes and strengthens our souls. Oh how vital is the time spent in HIS presence.

May you find a moment today to quiet your heart and your mind, to seek HIM even for just a moment. And may your heart and soul be refreshed and renewed by the power of HIS presence and the comfort of HIS voice.

Have a lovely weekend!

(note: I wrote this a few days ago before we had all our stuff, but we didn't have internet until yesterday...We now have all our stuff, but this morning I had a couple quiet moments to myself and I was reminded that I wanted to share this post.)

Wednesday, October 31, 2012


I know, I just wrote about Elijah yesterday, but I have been thinking about all the things he is currently doing/saying; I am fascinated and I don't want to forget them, what better way to remember than to write them down?

(this post is partly just for my benefit so it might get a bit lengthy - feel free to stop reading whenever...haha)

One of my favorite things that he does right now: he will randomly come up to give me or Ethan (daddy) a hug - usually around one of our legs - it is just so sweet! He has also been reaching for our hands when we are walking side by side - love it!

 He is SUPER friendly (most of the time) and he LOVES to interact with other people (adults and children). Sometimes he just bursts out in laughter to try to get their attention. And when we are walking down the street he will wave to all the cars passing by. When people respond his eyes sparkle and he gives a smile that lights up the entire room.

It brings me joy to see how his little smile and personality can make even a complete stranger's day!

He has always been an incredible sleeper (PRAISE THE LORD), but lately, he has literally been asking to go to bed, he says, "ni-nite? ni-nite?" and points to his bed, sometimes he even tries to climb in to his bed. At times this happens way before bedtime and I have to find ways to keep him awake a little longer so he doesn't end up waking up at the crack of dawn.

He has been learning a lot of new words and phrases, I just LOVE hearing him talk - even when it is just jibber jabber. One of his favorite phrases is, "Oh, no!" - sometimes he will say it over and over again for no apparent reason. Another favorite word/phrase of his is, "dip-it, dip-it" (he LOVES dipping any and all food in to whatever sauce is available), but he usually runs the words together so it comes out more like "bi-ta, bi-ta, bi-ta, bi-ta". And he will literally keep repeating it until you respond. Oh the persistence of toddlers.

His most favorite word as of late, is the infamous "no". It is often not so cute, but many times when he chooses to say it and the way he says it makes it almost impossible not to laugh.

These are from last year, but today is Halloween so that's my justification :)

There are also a handful of things he does right now that I am not very fond of at all.

For example, throwing himself or other items on the ground if he doesn't get his way.  I mean, how did he learn this?? I know, despite our many flaws and outbursts of anger or frustration, we do not throw items and especially not ourselves on the ground in a fit... haha!

Another not so great trait of this particular stage is his eating, or lack thereof - sometimes it seems like he literally won't eat anything; obviously, this is not entirely true, but sometimes it feels like such a battle.

My hope is in knowing that these too shall pass and my desire is to focus on remembering the good things (without forgetting the not so good things since we will be having more children and I need to be aware of the good and bad...)

That is all for now (although, I am sure I could keep going), more on mommy-hood later :)

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

This Little Boy of Mine

My little man and I have been getting to spend a lot of time together lately, well, we always do (such an incredible blessing), but lately is has been a lot of JUST us time. While I look forward to more adult interaction, I am also cherishing every single moment I have with this sweet, sweet boy.

He has stolen my heart over and over again. Even on the most challenging days, I am amazed at how much my entire being LOVES him.

From the moment I found out I was pregnant...

To the first time I held him in my arms...

To today...

My love for him has grown in ways and to depths that I never could have imagined. A mother's love is certainly one of the most powerful things on earth.

I LOVE the gift of motherhood with all its ups and downs, with all its challenges and victories, and with all the heartache and joy. And I love how it has revealed God's love for me in a new, different and very powerful way, sometimes it is still beyond my comprehension.

I desperately want my son to know how much I love him. To understand that no matter what he does or who he becomes, he will always be my baby boy and there is NOTHING that could make me love him less. Of course, I want him to choose the right things and to avoid as much hurt and pain as possible, but regardless, my love for him remains the same.

I know God's love for us is that and so much more, and I know that He desperately wants His children to understand the love that He has for them.

Today I am thankful for the ways that He has revealed His love towards me and I pray that I will continue to not only understand His love, but to accept it as well.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Waiting Silently

In my Bible reading app on my phone, the verse of the day was "Truly my soul silently waits for God; from Him comes my salvation." Psalm 62:1. I don't know why, but this verse just really hit me today. WAITING on the Lord is a hard thing to do and the idea of doing it SILENTLY seems almost impossible at times. I am learning that in those silent times of waiting, when it seems like NOTHING is happening, that is often when God is doing a great work in us - if we let Him, if we take time to seek Him and hear from Him throughout the process.

While I am waiting, I don't always feel this hopeful, but today I do and for that I am thankful. I feel hopeful that later I will be able to look back and see what God was teaching me. I trust that when I reflect I will see that I am not the same person, that I am more like Jesus at least in some small way.

It is not always pleasant and often it is very painful, but I am so thankful that Jesus loves me enough not to leave me the way I am today. He constantly, lovingly, faithfully teaches me, molds me and changes me.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

The weigh in:
I am a little late with this post but here is it nonetheless: My weight Monday June 4, 2012 - 170lbs!!! Ahh! It's worse than I thought :( Still it has been a good week and a half - haven't quite seen results yet, but I have been sticking to my plan and I feel so much better.
Here's to another week of discipline and hard work! With the Lord's help and some encouragement from wonderful friends and family, I CAN DO THIS :)

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Weight loss...

Yesterday I "got back on the horse" in regards to my weight loss efforts. After two weeks of vacation  - bad eating and no working out - I feel like the task before me is more daunting than ever. I never thought it would be this hard or take this long... After I had my son Elijah - who is now almost 15 months - I thought I could be back to normal in 6 months or at the very least within the first year. Now that both of those goals have passed me by and I am still struggling with the last 15-20lbs, my current goal is to lose at least 15lbs (ideally 20...) before I get pregnant again.  I don't have a lot of time if we still want our kids to be approximately 2yrs apart like we have always wanted.

It has been a challenge, to say the least. I have made progress along the way, but I have also put back on a few pounds that I had lost - that is so discouraging. I know what I need to do, but it is a matter of discipline and consistency. A few months ago I was on a roll, I was motivated, disciplined and consistent for about 2 months and I was seeing results, but then right before Christmas I fell down the stairs and broke my foot! Argh!! I lost all my momentum and was unable to work out for a few months :(

I am done with excuses/set-backs and I am SO ready to see results. Which is partly why I decided to write  about this journey - to expose myself and gain some accountability. I am also hoping that when I am having a moment of weakness - when I really want that late night dessert or that second or third piece of pizza - that I can write instead.

My plan right now: weight watchers & and couch to 5K app (starting Monday). I will also weigh myself on Monday and post the number that the scale reads, no matter how painful or embarrassing that may be for me.

Monday, January 23, 2012

The beginning...

I have been wanting to blog for a long time now, but kept finding a reason to delay. One of the biggest reasons was that I could not settle on what I considered to be a "great" blog name, haha! I am still not completely sure, but I think "Sufficient Grace" is a very appropriate reminder for me.

"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.""

2 Corinthians 12:9

Never before in my life have my weaknesses been more apparent; nothing like marriage and motherhood to reveal just how flawed and weak I truly am. It is a wonderful and very difficult place to be, but my hope is that I learn to lean more and more on the sufficient grace of the Lord. As I recognize my weaknesses, I pray that His grace becomes continually more visible in my life.  So here is to the beginning of my blogging journey! :)